Staging a life: Adrian Pang on the trials, tribulations, and thrills of being a working actor
Singaporean actor and theatre producer Adrian Pang reflects on the Singapore of yore, his ten-year acting career in the UK, setting up Pangdemonium, and his wishes for a more compassionate nation.
Adrian's earliest memories of Singapore date back to when he was four. He had just arrived in the country with his family from Malacca.
"Our first address was at a HBD flat at Outram Park where I have great memories of playing with the neighbourhood kids every evening in the void deck," he reminisces.
The now-defunct Majestic Theatre was a staple haunt, from where he'd walk home after seeing Bruce Lee's Fist of Fury, and pretend to be his parents' bodyguard by fending off imaginary villains with awful hairdos.
Sadly, the Majestic Theatre closed its doors in 1998. "I mourn its demise as a cinema," he reminisces, pointing out that the entire neighbourhood of Chinatown looks completely unrecognisable from what he describes as the "'good ol, bad ol' days."
He also remembers accompanying his mother to Tiong Bahru Market every week. "I think she was secretly trying to sell me off," he quips.
The only place that has remained impervious to time's meddling is People's Park Complex, which he considers to be the pinnacle of mall culture. "To this day, that place seems to be stuck in a time capsule from the Seventies; I recall this aunty who runs a jewellery shop, and I swear she hasn't aged a day in the last 50 years," he recalls.
These snapshots of a post-Independence Singapore would be alien to most of us. Adrian, who remembers what the country was like in the aftermath of its separation from Malaysia, describes it as the Wild, Wild, Southeast. "There was a distinct sense of rawness and unknowability; the air was rife with anticipation, adventure, and possibility," he recounts.
"And look at where Singapore is now. That's the power of self-belief."
An initiation into film and theatre
A young Adrian, presumably the one dressed up as a pirate. Photo credit: CNA Lifestyle
When Adrian was ten, his uncle snuck him into the cinema to view a piece of media rather inappropriate for a prepubescent: Taxi Driver. While he could not grasp the plot, he identified with the feelings right away.
"I felt a whole plethora or emotions: terror, confusion, amusement, stress, euphoria, and rage," he reflects, invariably drawn to magnetic portrayal of the disillusioned misanthrope, Travis Bickle.
He was similarly moved by The Godfather, which he describes as a "jaw dropper", the 1977 American miniseries Roots for its incisive portrayal of enslavement during the days of the American South, and action series Starsky and Hutch.
His formative experiences with theatre, on the other hand, occurred at age fifteen, when he auditioned for a role in his school's production of British period musical Oliver!. Wrestling with the tedium of being a bored teenager, he decided to sign up on a whim. "Being a shy teen, I was also excited and terrified by the prospect of meeting girls in the cast, whom we borrowed from Anglo-Chinese Junior College (ACJC)," he admits, with a chuckle.
He ended up snagging the role of Mr. Brownlow, Oliver's long-lost adoptive grandfather, a move he touts as the beginning of the end. "Discovering theatre turned my life upside down, in the best and worst ways," he admits. "My school grades took a huge tumble. My home life became chaos. I became obsessed with acting."
Life as a working actor in the UK
A 25-year-old Adrian at the start of his career in the UK. Photo credit: CNA Lifestyle.
Shortly after graduating from Keele University in the UK with a law degree, he decided to forego the Bar and devote his time and attention to becoming an actor instead.
His parents were distraught.
"There was wailing and weeping, and a lot of 'What did I do to deserve this?' statements. Clearly, I inherited my mother's dramatic genes," he remarks.
He spent the next ten years painstakingly building up his performing credentials in film, television, and theatre. Such a career move was incredibly risky, and doubly so for Adrian, who was trying to prove himself in a place away from home, and removed from the comfort and luxuries he was accustomed to.
Compounding his struggles were the issues of assimilation and visibility for East Asians, and the fact that the industry, at the time, was reluctant to award East Asian performers any meaningful opportunities beyond the superficial.
After spending more than a decade in the UK, if there's anything about the country's prolific theatre tradition that has left a lasting impression upon Adrian, it would be the way the English celebrate their theatrical and literary heritage.
"The nuance of depth, breadth, colour, and tone contained in its texts, and its incredibly wide range of accents, are all tied up within with its lifestyle and attitude and history," he explains. "Theatre is indelibly tied in with British attitudes, lifestyles, and histories, and it is challenging to keep up with how fast the scene is evolving."
As an outsider who had grown up speaking only "Singaporean English", he felt like a tourist trying his hardest to carve out a livelihood in the British theatre scene. "Never for a moment could I pretend to be a native Brit. There was always a constant pull to return to Singapore, whether for friends, family, food, or work," he shares.
Over the course of his career in the UK, Adrian had the chance to rub shoulders with legendary acting stalwarts. "I had the privilege of working with the late, great Nigel Hawthorne on a TV series called The Fragile Heart," he recalls. "He was a brilliant actor, and a kind, lovely man."
Other actors include Brad Pitt for action thriller Spy Game, and Robert De Niro, whom he met after his run of the musical, Hair, on the West End.
Besides a formative career in film and television, the UK also introduced Adrian to Tracie, his wife of thirty years.
He sets the scene for their encounter rather cinematically. "A drunk, moody actor meets a tall, winsome stage manager after Glen Goei (Singaporean director)'s staging of Into the Woods. Their eyes meet. He's wearing leather pants in 36 degrees weather. She has Nineties hair."
A year and a half after this fateful meeting, the couple got married in London. Glen Goei was the best man.
Homeward bound, and a new opportunity
The fateful call to return to Singapore happened while Adrian was on set with Brad Pitt.
"I was asked if I'd be interested to join this new TV station, as a full-time artist," he recalls.
At the time, he was already a father to two young boys, and the possibility of a better life, professionally and creatively, in Singapore was tempting.
After lengthy discussions with Tracie, the duo decided that the idea of raising their children in Singapore offered advantages that outweighed Adrian's artistic pursuits in the UK. They agreed to living in Singapore for a year, as an experiment.
"Three months later, we were sweating our guts off in 97% humidity," he quips.
Getting accustomed to a new way of life after having been away for a decade came with its own set of challenges. For starters, Adrian found the process of adjusting to his title as a full-time employee of a TV corporation bewildering.
"There were many moments where I asked myself, "What the hell have I done?" he says.
However, he powered through the daily discomfort for the sake of his family. Over the next few years, he performed in TV shows of all sorts: soap operas, variety shows, game shows, dramas, sitcoms, and info-tainment programmes.
Notable shows include the sitcom Ah Girl, for which Adrian bagged the Best Actor in a Comedy Series award, at the Asian Television Awards; a mini-series, Six Weeks, which he helped create and write, and info-tainment food show Yummy King, which required him to speak Mandarin.
MediaWorks would last for less than three years, before being acquired by the state-owned media agency, Mediacorp. In the wake of the chaotic takeover, Adrian was preparing to move back to the UK and start from zero.
By a stroke of luck, not only was he offered to stay on at Mediacorp, but he also signed his first major performing opportunity with Mediacorp, a 100-episode Mandarin drama titled Portrait of Home.
"Having to do Portrait of Home in Mandarin was retribution for tormenting my Mandarin language teachers all throughout primary and secondary school," he chuckles.
The opportunity to perform in Mandarin on-stage appeared many years, later, in a 2024 Canadian production of Salesman in China, Arthur Miller and Ying Ruocheng's Cold War-era collaboration on a Chinese version of Death of a Salesman.
And this time, he was more than prepared.
Setting up Pangdemonium
Adrian and Tracie. Photo credit: Vogue Singapore
After a decade of being a full-time employee of two TV stations, Adrian decided it was time for a change. "I needed to reclaim some sense of autonomy as an actor," he says.
For some time, he and Tracie had been privately contemplating starting their own theatre company where they would have control over their creative voice and artistic vision.
This was in the midst of the 2008 financial crisis: the impetus to get things off the ground couldn't have been more inopportune. "Right in the middle of a global meltdown, when people were losing their jobs left, right, and centre, and long before anyone deemed it fashionable to call artists non-essential, Tracie convinced me that it was time to get started."
Adrian quit his day job and, together with Tracie, they bet their collective savings into starting a theatre company. "Fifteen years later, we now have an adolescent Pangdemonium we are rather proud of," he reflects.
For their first show, the duo wanted to kick off with something that combined entertainment with substance. They settled on The Full Monty, a musical in which a group of steelworkers decide to present a strip act at a local club after witnessing their wives' enthusiasm for a similar show.
"At its heart, The Full Monty is about family, friendship, community, never giving up, and a father going to extreme lengths for the sake of his son," Adrian explains. "There were many parallels in the story, to real-life circumstances at the time."
The Full Monty was a labour of love, with everyone chipping in to play their part: Tracie directed the show, the Pangs' sons took turns playing Adrian's on-stage son, the Pangdemonium team rallied around and supported the production both on and off stage; and Adrian gleefully relieved himself of his clothing every night.
Looking back on their inaugural show, he realises how massive a gamble staging it was, but considers it was worthwhile. In fact, Pangdemonium had planned to restage it in 2020, as a celebration of the company's 10th anniversary, but extenuating circumstances prevented him from doing so.
"A naughty little virus had other plans. And nobody wants to see a 60-year-old man naked on stage, so our strip-by date has long expired," Adrian jokes.
The many dimensions of being a Singaporean creative
Besides helming groundbreaking work at Pangdemonium, Adrian has also been called upon to perform in projects with a patriotic slant.
Twice he has played the late Lee Kuan Yew in The LKY Musical, staged by theatre company Singapore Repertory Theatre. He also directed Singapore's National Day Parade in 2022, which marked the nation's return to large-scale live performances after a two-year COVID-induced hiatus.
"Singapore and I have a colourful history together. There are certain things about her I have gripes with and, conversely, there are many things about me she'd facepalm about," he quips.
"But at the end of the day, Singapore will always be home. And I wholly agree with our former Prime Minister that air conditioning was the most important invention for Singapore. Perhaps, there should have been a song about that in the LKY musical."
Incidentally, Adrian realises how in the fifteen years since starting Pangdemonium, he's seen how much progress the arts has made in Singapore. Now, he's trying to carve out spaces for fellow actors to have the voice Pangdemonium offered him.
"It's a small community; growing, but still small, and we have to look out for one another," he comments.
As far as younger artists are concerned, Adrian finds their candid approach towards conversations about mental health remarkable, having come from a generation which shied away from acknowledging the issue altogether.
"Creatives, just by nature of their choice of vocation, are particularly susceptible to mental health issues," he shares. "My own job as an actor has enabled me to slip under the skins of different humans in a way that has just made me a little more empathetic towards others."
He's been forthcoming about his own struggles with depression, which he often dubs as the "black dog". In a sobering admission, he states how the condition has been with him his entire life. "I've been facing up to the black dog. He's still here with me right now."
On the future of Singapore
When Adrian contemplates the future of Singapore, he thinks of his sons, both of whom he and Tracie tried to steer towards "proper jobs", but are now carving out their own artistic paths as actors. "You can lead a horse to water, but if they still choose to be an actor rather than an accountant, there's nothing you can do about it," he remarks dryly.
On a more sobering note, he hopes that his children can inherit a more open-minded, gracious, and compassionate Singapore.
"My two boys have certainly grown up in Singapore with a deep appreciation of everything Singapore is. My hope for them is that they also get to experience the world beyond, and make their own adventures, and carve their own paths through life," he shares.
"All I'll say is that we as a people, as Singaporeans, individually and collectively, are survivors."
Meet Adrian.
Adrian Pang is a Singaporean actor, and artistic director and co-founder of theatre company Pangdemonium.
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